Lovely and Airy on the side of the Mountain

Today I can’t lose that feel
Which is usually fine once you get used to it
I think I know the reason, it sometimes happens too
I think of what of people say to me
You see, people say I got it easy
Right life decisions, they say
With the wrong astray mind, I stand
And the house, the fast bikes, and the fast cars
All of it means nothing on days like these
And I feel that I need a long hiatus from this life.
So you all know, I bought the house to find peace within me
I drive fast cars for the pleasure of it
And I will ride fast bikes to remind me of my mortality,
To not feel the emptiness inside of me and know what it is like to be alive
To exist and not part ways way to early laying in a hospital bed

Yesterday someone approached me lost in ale
He told me I was the most humble person he knew
A great friend and how he was proud of me for all I have achieved in life,
but within these achievements, there are regrets
Regrets that will forever haunt me
And no one knows neither gives a shit about them
All they see is the life I currently lead, and in their minds I got it easy
I wanted to thank him for such kind words, so I hugged him
And I bought him a beer

Well, besides all that
It is lovely and airy on the side of the mountain,
Looking down upon the beach, listening to birds and shiny sand
Few years back and you’d say it must have been god’s work
It isn’t, it really isn’t, and I will tell you why
So will my friend tell you that my god would mug yours
Because god will feed the poor with lies and kill their souls
In his best attempt to make them fit for this hellish world
But god is long gone before greed and honey
And god may rest where he’s laying at this very moment
Because I will keep on rocking the boat no matter what

I will keep on marveling Waits’ songs
I will keep on whistling Sweet Emma Barrett’s version of When I Grow Too Old To Dream
I will keep on raising glasses of wine, whiskey and beer
I will keep on dreaming of visiting Ballinalee
I will start singing Parting Glass lost on an Irish pub
I will forever be a technology advocate and support great causes with it
I will do it all
And keep on driving fast bikes

So when it comes the time
whenever and if I have to go
Will you remember me?